Come what may

I cant remember how many times I 've been congratulated in life. The first ever 'congratulation' I got was from my late 'opahcik' (a younger sister of my late grandma) when I was 12 yrs old. She uttered the word Tahniah to me when I got the offer to study in one of the residential schools in the country. This opahcik was org bandar, uptodate and quite a classy granny though..... I'm sorry for her, I wasnt up to the standard since I didnt end up with flying colors, instead having to cope with all kinds of miseries these days.

The most recent congratulation I got was from Pakyob (bro Harith Faruqi) while on our way to the mosque last Friday prayer .. It was a 'congratulation in advance' actually, for something I never dream of, a promotion...haha. Promotion?..mmm...Not sure whether I'm under or over qualified ..coz my application submitted thru my superior weeks ago for recommendations, left untouched and the closing date is due soon. I'm not sure i'll be called for the borak-borak session.

Unlike pak yob, I still havent got that socalled 'special increment' yet which I have already put my hope down the drain for that..

when there are sacrifices, there are lot of things left unkempt..

neglected...once eden now jungle...

Well, eventhough all my efforts and sacrifices have not been appreciated, I always remind myself not to be disapointed, frustrated, downhearted, whatsoever. Imanuel Kannt a german philosopher once said : 'the drama of this life is not complete, there must be a second scene to it, for we see the tyrant and his victims without seeing justice being executed. We see the conqueror and the subjugated, without the latter finding any revenge. Therefore there must be another world, where justice will be carried out.'

So, if I were to choose between having status in society with plentiful money and having a happy, radiant smiling self., I would choose the latter. For what is great wealth if it begets misery? What is high position if it comes with constant gloominess. It's always lonely at the top actually...kinda sour grape huh.

For whatever negative outcomes coming my way plus work piles up...I would avoid the feeling of being depressed or overly stressed. I have to repel boredom by doing more works. Come more works please and I will smile to the world and be kind to others eventhough they're inconsiderate, heartless, ruthless whatever.
Yeah, be kind to others so that comfort comes to your heart.

To me, life has to go on and I must accept it as it is. I must contemplate and thankful for everything I have. When I feel down, I would tell myself to look at those less fortunate ppl around. To me and my less fortunate friends, there's nothing to be sad of, coz this is not the only life. But, are we well prepared for the next life?

Nota kaki: Once in awhile I would post in english as my command in the language is getting hancus and hancusss if it's seldom used....in other words I'm getting dumber and dumber...mmm.. nak wat camno...

Le Blasson

syikin...a short-haired, slim, quite an attractive humanbeing. I met her once and I was really impressed with her warmth plus clever conversation she shared with me... from certain angles she's a lil funny..and looks cute too. With her as company I wouldnt mind having expensive supper at Le Blasson.

azarina...though I've talked to her a couple of times, I never met this konon baguss person,. but to sum up..I would never wish to meet this very unprofessional human being...she's already ugly in my head....with her around I would surely feel like throwing up..and Le Blasson's certainly not in my list.

Buat seorang guru

Miskipun pemerkosa cum pembunuh dijatuhkan hukuman sampai mati, tiada apa yg dapat mengembalikan anaknya ke dunia ini...tiada apa yang menggembirakan,...there's nothing to celebrate actually..spt katanya.
Lama tak mendengar beritanya, cuma setahun dua kebelakangan ini wajahnya terpampang di media massa, lantas membangkitkan detik-detik nostalgis di zaman lampauku. Simpati tidak terhingga buat seorang guru yg telah mendidikku dengan penuh dedikasi, komitmen, kebaikan dan kelembutannya,...

Dia cikgu Matematik ku dari Tingkatan 1 hingga Tingkatan 3...Aku masih ingat, semasa aku sdg asyik melihat keputusan exam SRP ku di papan kenyataan sekolah....aku dikejutkan oleh satu suara betul2 dari belakangku.."Hey congratulations.. you got it! ". Bila aku toleh rupanya dia. Beliau sgt gembira masa tu krn ramai anakmuridnya mendapat A1 dlm subjeknya termasuklah aku...Bila ting 4 dan 5 beliau tak mengajarku lagi..dan masa SPM aku tak dapat A1 lagi dlm matematik, cuma cukup makan shj.
Beliau seorang guru yang sangat baik, lemahlembut dan berperawakan menarik. Kini aku sgt bersimpati dgnnya.
My deepest condolence to Mrs Pearly Ong.... semoga beliau tabah menghadapi kehidupan ini.

edited on : 11 March 2007

Mutiara yg hilang

sepanjang jalan ke pulau pinang...hatiku terjun ke air ...

Masa orang balik kampong beraya Cina, aku ikut rombongan ke utara sbb ada rakan kerja (anak mami) walimatul urus di pulau pinang. dah lama berkurun aku tak menyertai ekpedisi berombongan ni. Ntah camana aku boleh tersetuju utk join rombongan ni sekali, sampaikan bbrp org agak heran termasuk le pengantin. Dan dah lama gak aku tak menjejak kaki ke Pulau Mutiara ni...kali terakhir mungkin lebih sedekad lalu, masa transit sewaktu ke Medan dulu.

bukit bendera di tempat kami...

kreatif gak macha ni...

tambangnya murah, mengasyikkan..

pdg kota yg dah berubah wajah..laksa sedap tu pun dah pindah ..

Dua hari di pulau pinang sempat jugak aku naik Bukit Bendera, makan nasi kandaq, makan laksa...tapi aku tak jumpa laksa yg sedap dulu tu..yg sampai aku boleh makan bertambah. Kali ni jamah sikit je, tak habis...enaknya kurengg ... Nasi kandaq pun aku tak tau kat mana yg sedaq.....ntah le, pulau pinang dah membuat aku kurang teruja.

Bzzzz

Waduh, sudah agak lama aku tak mengetuk-ngetuk keyboard ni utk mengepos-ngepos entri terkini. Dah lama dah...blogger pun dah tak kenal aku, mujur le boleh memblog lagi.
Sibuk, bz dan seangkatan dengannya mmg dah jadi lumrah asam garam kehidupan aku. Biler terbaca komen "aku lerr' yg menjenguk blog yg kian hambar ni, aku tergerak balik nak mengetuk-ngetuk keyboard yg dah buruk ni.
'aku lerr'.. seorang insan misteri yang tak pernah aku temui barangkali, tapi aku pasti 'aku lerr' adalah salah seorang dari rakan-rakan blog yang baik... (walaupun dia takde blog). Aku rasa mcm aku kenal jer 'aku lerr'...mcm dejavu je..