Come what may

I cant remember how many times I 've been congratulated in life. The first ever 'congratulation' I got was from my late 'opahcik' when I was 12 yrs old. She uttered the word Tahniah to me when I got the offer to study in one of the prestigious residential schools in the country. This opahcik was org bandar, uptodate and quite a classy granny though..... I'm sorry for her, I wasnt up to the standard since I didnt end up with flying colors, instead having to cope with all kinds of miseries these days.

The most recent congratulation I got was from Pakyob while on our way to the mosque last Friday prayer .. It was a 'congratulation in advance' actually, for something I never dream of, a promotion...haha. Promotion?..mmm...Not sure whether I'm under or over qualified ..coz my application submitted thru my superior weeks ago for recommendations, left untouched and the closing date is due soon. I'm not sure i'll be called for the borak-borak session.

Unlike pak yob, I still havent got that socalled 'special increment' yet which I have already put my hope down the drain for that..

when there are sacrifices, there are lot of things left unkempt..

neglected...once eden now jungle...

Well, eventhough all my efforts and sacrifices have not been appreciated, I always remind myself not to be disapointed, frustrated, downhearted, whatsoever. Imanuel Kannt a german philosopher once said : 'the drama of this life is not complete, there must be a second scene to it, for we see the tyrant and his victims without seeing justice being executed. We see the conqueror and the subjugated, without the latter finding any revenge. Therefore there must be another world, where justice will be carried out.'

So, if I were to choose between having status in society with plentiful money and having a happy, radiant smiling self., I would choose the latter. For what is great wealth if it begets misery? What is high position if it comes with constant gloominess. It's always lonely at the top actually...kinda sour grape huh.

For whatever negative outcomes coming my way plus work piles up...I would avoid the feeling of being depressed or overly stressed. I have to repel boredom by doing more works. Come more works please and I will smile to the world and be kind to others eventhough they're inconsiderate, heartless, ruthless whatever.
Yeah, be kind to others so that comfort comes to your heart.

To me, life has to go on and I must accept it as it is. I must contemplate and thankful for everything I have. When I feel down, I would tell myself to look at those less fortunate ppl around. To me and my less fortunate friends, there's nothing to be sad of, coz this is not the only life. But, are we well prepared for the next life?

Nota kaki: Once in awhile I would post in english as my command in the language is getting hancus and hancusss if it's seldom used....in other words I'm getting dumber and dumber...mmm.. nak wat camno...